Where have i been??

The Sky when i started this blog

Where in the world is Carmen SanDiego?

If you ever watched this show growing up then you are probably still wondering, as i, who Carmen even is?

Okay im not Carmen, but i have been M.I.A recently and heres why.

“Not I, nor anyone else can travel that road for you.
You must travel it by yourself.
It is not far. It is within reach.
Perhaps you have been on it since you were born, and did not know. 
Perhaps it is everywhere - on water and land.” 
― Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass

Its been a month and a half since i blogged last. Many have posed the question 'where have you been'? To me the bigger question is 'where haven't i been'?

                         Metaphorically speaking iv been everywhere. 

          A month and a half ago i made the sixteen hour move from a small town in Ohio to a bustling city in Florida; with high hopes and plans. Dont worry im not going to bore you with all the details, but as most of you already know, about three weeks ago i made the hard and excruciating decision to move back to ohio. 

          Now back to the question at the beginning, where have i been? Emotionally speaking iv been everywhere. Sad, happy, excited, disappointed, confused, frustrated, highstrung, lowstrung, heartbroken, miserable, free, and lonely. 

The whirlwind of the past two months has weighed on me both emotionally and physically. 

        In Florida i wasnt able to keep my workout regimen because of the location i lived in, and my diet slowly started to reflect the stress i was feeling.

•  Pre-move i was running five miles every other day and had a very strict diet that kept me at a very happy weight that i easily maintained.
•  Post-move i have been struggling with the fact that iv gained almost thirteen pounds in the past month. Now to some this sounds like pocket change but to others they might gasp. For me, its unforgivable and scary. I worked very hard for the past two years to lose eighty pounds, and when i see the numbers on the scale rise i cant help but freak out a little.

 The great thing is, its shined a light on a couple things in my life that i think most girls can maybe relate too...

Looking past the numbers on the scale to find my beauty..

Every time i step on the scale i feel like instead of numbers it should say beautiful, worthy, better than. I know for myself sometimes i put my self worth and beauty in what the numbers say on the scale. Stepping on the scale lately has been really hard for me, if i gain a pound or two i start to feel depressed or down on myself and feel unworthy; but when its opposite and the numbers are lower then expected i feel instantly reaffirmed and 'pretty'. 

It becomes a dark road when you put your worth in something that changes constantly. 

You are so much more than three numbers.

Im ready to kick my butt into high gear and get HEALTHY again, and you are coming on this journey with me. 

First things first

I always do better when i have a goal and plan written out that i can have in front of me. So heres it is:

 

Workout regimen-

Monday through friday i am setting my alarm every morning at 7am to wake up and go for a 30 minute brisk walk or jog!

Monday, tuesdays, and thursdays will consist of zumba class. 

Food-

Control and Portion are my new words to live by when it comes to meal times. 

Im throwing out the animal crackers and ice cream and getting back to earths basics. An egg for breakfast, then lean protein and veges for lunch and dinner, and of course fruit for snacks. Plus lots and lots of water. Yeah its really that easy. Its just using that self control to stay away from the bad foods and portion control to not overeat. 

Ill give you the weekly update on my journey not just back to where i was physically a month ago but to a new found happiness and freedom in being healthy and happy :)

Join me?

Please feel free to comment below or message me via facebook if you ever need encouragement, advice, or a listening ear! 

As always thank you so much for the support. Im not sure if this blog was written for anyone but myself, but alas, time to publish it.

The Sky while finishing this blog.. Beautiful